Saturday, March 3, 2012
4:20am - Can't Sleep
Another night without sleep. I have taken 2 Ambien and it hasn't helped. I just got done drinking Decafe Constant Comment tea. I love the stuff. I was hoping it would start raining again. A big storm would be nice. I feel bad for all those people in IN that lost their homes and lives. How devastating.
I have met a milestone today. I thought of you, Montana and didn't cry. There were tears in my eyes but I didn't sob like I always so. It isn't that I love you any less, Montana. I still miss you like crazy and I know I always will! I am just hoping the memories out way the tears. I know I could be good today and break down tomorrow. It is crazy how that works. I ordered your Urn a couple days ago. I hope it turns out the way I am hoping it will.
Well I suppose I should try to get some sleep. I haven't been able to remember my dreams lately but I wish you would come to me in my dreams and have me remember them. Goodnight my sweet love. My heart dog!