You are not going to believe it! I have not cried in two days. What is happening to me? Am I finally moving on and excepting your death? I don't know what to think of it. Today I was busy worrying about Bailey. She had her tumor removed and I was a nervous wreck the whole day. Sick to my stomach and everything. I was so relieved when they called and said that things went well. I was still nervous. I didn't feel better until I got her home and took a good look at her. She has quite the incision and obviously her chest is shaved. They brushed her and cut her nails when they were done with the surgery. I was very pleased to see that. It looks like she will be ok.
I miss you so much, Montana. Please don't think I don't love and miss you because I do. More than you will ever know. Maybe you do know. Are you around? I haven't seen any signs. Were you there watching over Bailey during her surgery? I like to think you were. I got your urn last Thursday and couldn't open it. Dumb me I was turning the screws the wrong way. I brought it to Val and Andy's to help me open it. I also brought the tin urn that you were in and the little baggy of your hair that I had. Once we opened the new urn I had to open the tin urn where your ashes were. I didn't cry. I got tears in my eyes but didn't cry. I put the ashes, hair and two little cards from the crematorium in the new urn. Sealed it back up and brought you home. I miss you my big beautiful boy. You are in my heart always.