Bad Day

Mommy is having a really bad day today, Montana. I am just heartbroken over losing you. You would think things would be getting easier but they aren't. I feel like I am just getting worse. This no job thing is really bringing me down. I just wish you were here to keep Bailey and I company. I would have been able to spend so much time with you. I am not sure why I am crying so hard today. I have been having a hard time sleeping lately. The doctor gave me some Ambien yesterday and I took it last night. I think all this crying has to do with it. I also had these terrible dreams of losing Bailey. I just couldn't bare that. I found out today that one page that I really loved on Facebook (Everything German Shepherd)is closing due to the health of the owner. I loved going to that page every day and learning new things about the GSD. Every since you died I have had a hard time knowing where I stand with the Siberian Husky community. They have all been wonderful and very supportive. Sometimes I feel funny posting on the Husky/Mal groups since I no longer own a Sibe. I guess I would miss it if I stopped. I hope to own another Sibe or Mal in the future. Nobody would ever replace you my sweet boy! You were definitely one of a kind. I can't imagine opening up my heart again to another dog. You and Bailey were/are my life. I have no purpose without you both. I am hoping today will get better and I will be able to function like a "normal" human being. I love you Montana. I think of you every minute of every day!

Here is a picture of the two most important beings in my life!