4 yr Rainbow Bridge Day

 

My Dear Sweet Montana,

It has been 4 yrs since you left me.  Where has the time gone?  My life hasn't been the same since you passed away.  I miss you so much!  I think about all the great memories we had together.  I think about those times quite often.  I rarely think about your last days.  The surgery on your tail, you not eating, me still giving you the Deramaxx which ended up killing you.  You don't know how much I regret that.  Even to this day I wish I would have listened to my gut.  You might still be here.  You were my heart and soul.  Bailey was a daddy's girl and you were mine. 

I also wanted to thank you for sending Buddy to me.  As you probably know he passed away July 24, 2015.  I sure hope you were there to meet him at The Bridge.  He brought me such happiness and joy.  He was my sweet Bud Bud!  You did a great job picking him out for me.  I realized we really needed each other.  I know you know his story so I don't need to write it out again.  Besides I posted it a couple times in this blog. 
 

Bailey is going down hill.  She has, what I believe is Degenerative Myelopathy.  There is nothing that can be done.  I have a harness for her now for when the time comes that she can hardly walk.  She misses Buddy but I know she missed you so much when you passed away.  She hardly ate for 18 mos.  But I am sure you know that.  She only started eating when I brought Buddy home.  I believe he helped heal her heart too.  I worry about her being alone when I am at work.  Please come and keep her company.

Montana, my boy, please come to visit me in my dreams.  It has been a long time since I have seen and felt you.  I miss you so much!  Happy Rainbow Bridge day my love!

A Young Dog Once Again

You're giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner till the end.
Please, understand just what this gift
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it, too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady dog,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever-faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
... a young dog once again.

This Is Why Dogs Never Die

2 1/2 yrs

My sweet boy!  It has been 2 1/2 years today that you have been gone.  I miss you just as much as I did when you first left me.  The past couple days have been rough which has made me really miss you.  I miss how you would place your paw on my knee when I would cry or when you wanted attention.  I just miss everything about you.  I know I will see you again and that gives me hope.  Bailey is getting older and has lost her hearing.  That makes me sad.  Buddy will be 12 in April and he is slowing down quite a bit.  I can't believe in a couple weeks Buddy will have been here 1 yr.  After you passed away I never thought I could love another dog.  Buddy has changed that.  I love the little guy!  He seems happy here.  He has to since he is inside and loved. 

 

Buddy at the shelter

                                                                            Buddy at home

Just a little note to say I love you and miss you, Montana!  I can't wait until we are reunited!

The Moment That You Died

It was your birthday on January 1st and I missed writing in here.  You were on my mind all day!  Oh Montana, I am still missing you and crying almost every day.  When will I stop?  I know grief is different for every one.  Bailey and Buddy bring me joy and happiness but there is always something missing.  You!  I hope you had a wonderful Birthday celebration at The Bridge!  I am sure all your friends were there.  I love you, Montana!

Montana's 3rd Christmas in Heaven

 
Even though this is Montana's 3rd Christmas in Heaven I thought I would post this poem that I found on Facebook.

My First Christmas in Heaven
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven's star, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is spectacular, please wipe away the tear.
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas Choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart,
But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart

So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
For I can't count the blessings of love he has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,
Remember I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS AT THE RAINBOW BRIDGE

  

T'was the night before Christmas, at the Rainbow Bridge too
We Bridge kids were thinking, as always, of you
We'd seen how the holidays weren't bright this year
Heard you whisper so often, "I wish you were here"

We know how you wish you could just stay in bed
And sleep through the holiday lying ahead
When all celebrate with their loved ones so near...
Unless they have loved one on this side this year

But we're no less alive here, on the other side
If you could just see us, you would've laughed and not cried
The dogs all in harness, pulling the sleigh
The cats all in Santa hats pointing the way

The pet birds all flying back over the rainbow
Bound homeward in spite of Earth's darkness and snow
All the pets that you've lost, pets for whom you've cried
Flying home on this Christmas to be by your side

If you feel warm fur brush you when no pet's around
Hear a soft bark or purr, just a ghost of a sound
We're trying to tell you we're visiting this way
And our visits, even rainbows, can be on any day

But for Christmas we have something special to do
A sleigh full of happy dream visits for you
On doggy, on kitty, on winged friend and ferret!
The love that you lavished, we mean now to share it!

We're fetching that love home, the way we once played
With the closeness we shared and the memories we made
Our Earth lives with you were too short for us, too
And on this Christmas Eve, we have so much to do

So all through this night as you sleep in your beds
Sweet visions of fur babies dance in your heads
This one special night we can bring you Home for awhile
Your true home in Heaven, where again you will smile

Over the Rainbow you'll fly, for a short while this night
Hours that you'll be happy, hours that will feel right
Hours to cuddle and kiss us, to run and to play
Before the return to Earth in our magic way