15 mos and some days

Oh Montana....I miss you so much!  My heart is just so broken.  It has been 15 mos and some days since you left us.  I came across your Buster Cube tonight while I was looking for some toys for Bailey to play with.  It still had your kibble in it.  I thought Bailey might like something to play with that she hasn't seen in awhile.  Nothing seemed to interest her.  She has seemed pretty depressed lately.  I am sure she is missing your company.  I know it has been over a year but I don't think she has stopped missing you either.  I am going to Florida this year for Christmas and New Years.  I am going to have to board Bailey at the vets.  I have to do this because she is having a hard time holding her bladder lately and they will let her out more often then if I had a pet sitter come and let her out only 2 times.  I will miss her like crazy and will worry about her daily.  Please watch over her and protect her.

Bailey will be 11 in 2 days.  I wish I would have been able to have you here with me at 11.  It just wasn't long enough and it never would have been long enough.  You left me too soon, my sweet boy!  It is almost Christmas and I miss buying you Christmas stockings full of toys.  Even though you really didn't play with a lot of them it was fun to see you so excited over them.  I remember the first time you had your new Kong with peanut butter.  You loved it!  I also miss wrapping up a Busybone for the two of you and you smelling it and ripping the paper off.  It was so cute!  I wish I would have had videos of our Christmases together.  What a great thing to have.

I just can't wait until we are together again.  Every day will  be like Christmas then!  Love you baby boy!

From a Friend to Friend

FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND

You're giving me a special gift,

So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic, that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift,
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady dog,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
...a young dog once again.

Author Unknown

Paw Prints On My Heart

Paw Prints On My Heart

You came into my life one day,
So beautiful and smart,
My dear and sweet companion,
I loved you from the start.

And though I knew the time would come,
When we would have to part,
You'll never be forgotten,
You left paw prints on my heart.

(I love and miss you so much Montana!)

13 mos

Well my sweet boy.  It has been 13 mos since you left me.  My heart is just broken.  I miss you so much!  I just cry for you every day.  This heart ache won't go away.  You took my heart with you when you passed away.  I feel empty.  Bailey is the only thing keeping me going.  She is such a sweetheart and I know she misses you too.  There are days I just don't want to get out of bed and she makes me.  I have to continue living for her.  There are times I think about getting another dog but then I think about Bailey and how she would deal with another dog here.  I think she is enjoying having me by herself.  I don't think she wants to share me with anyone.  Or...maybe I am just not ready for another dog.  There are so many that need homes and if I could I would rescue them all.  No one would EVER take your place.  I hope you know that.  There will NEVER be another Montana!  Oh my boy...I miss you.  I miss everything about you.  I miss the feel of your fur, your sweet husky smile and your sillyness.  I hope you know how much I love you.  You will always be my heart.  Rest well my boy!

Angels

Friend Don't Mourn For Me

Friend, please don’t mourn for me
I’m still here, though you don’t see.
I’m right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I’m always near.
I’m everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I’ll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I’ll never wander out of your sight-
I’m the brightest star on a summer’s night.
I’ll never be beyond your reach-
I’m the warm moist sand when you’re at the beach.

I’m the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I’m the beautiful flowers of which you’re so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I’m the first bright blossom you’ll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I’m the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you’ll see that the face in the moon shine is mine.

When you start thinking there’s no one to love you,
you can talk to through the Lord up above you.
I’ll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
and you’ll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I’m the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I’m the smile you see on a baby’s face.

I yr Later! Where are you now?

1 YR later and where are you now?  Are you still waiting for me at Rainbow Bridge? Are you North of the Bridge?  I guess I would have to laugh a little if you are North of Rainbow Bridge since you were never really fond of the snow or even getting your feet wet.  You were such a silly boy.  Anniversaries are so hard.  Especially the first one.  I stayed up to 4am today (September 5, 2012) to make it to the minute you left me last year.  I cried and cried....and I still cry!  You were my life...... my heart dog.  There will never be another one like you.  Because of this I don't know if I could ever get another Siberian Husky.  You were the perfect starter husky one that will never be replaced.  You loved to lay around and play with your Buster Cube or chew on a rawhide or knuckle bone.  You loved food!  You always had a smile on your face.  You made me very very happy.  I hope I at least made you a little happy too.  You were my love and my angel.  You will forever be in my heart.  Wear you Silver Harness with Pride my love.