This is what she sent me:
Hi Beth!
Montana is so funny, I first asked him how old he was and he said 13,
9, old enough. (a little a.d.d)? :) I asked him why you would have perceived
him to be so stubborn and he said that "sometimes she just didn't make any
sense". I think if he didn't see the value in what you were asking then it
didn't really have any meaning in it for him. "Which was most of the time" (his
words). He said that you fussed over him quite a lot and that he knows you did
everything you could, his care was everything and then some. He liked things
simple and says that he got more care than was needed but loves you for it. He
knows that you loved him very, very much. He says that he loved you too and
that you spoiled him with lots of toys and treats and a big puffy bed but he
said he would have loved you just as much if he lived with you in a shack with a
dirt floor. He is healthy and happy and spends some of his time running through
green fields with his tongue hanging out and spends some of his time following
you around, with his tongue hanging out of the right side of his mouth. For
whatever reason he wanted me to be sure to put that in there (the part about his
tongue hanging out of the right side of his mouth). He sits with you when you
cry and he puts his paw on your leg to let you know he is still there with you.
He says that you can feel him there with you, don't brush it off as just your
imagination. He is not in any pain any more, he was but didn't want you to know
because you worry too much and he said he could handle it. He thought you were
a very good mom and when he is ready he will return to you in a new body. The
universe will arrange things perfectly, don't wonder how or when, just let the
universe do it's magic, you won't miss each other. He said that his leaving his
first family was divinely orchestrated that it was just time for him to leave
his first family and to be with you. You were not ready yet for him if he had
shown up in your life earlier than he did.
And he says "oh yes! He loved his name" It was big like his
personality. I asked him if there was anything else he wanted me to say and he
told me that he used to love rolling on his back and rubbing his face in the
carpet and getting up and shaking hair all over your living room and then stand
there smiling at you; with his tongue hanging out. :)
I hope this helps you, Beth, he is still with you and if you
don't discount it as your imagination you will feel him and even possibly see
him with you. He purposefully left you reminders so you would smile and think
of him.
God bless,
Jill